useless facts. about me. 1. i'm obsessive compulsive with nail clippers. 2. i refuse to let my hair go back to it's natural colour. 3. i have 4 movies out of 34 left to watch - johnny depp's every movie. 4. i love to sing. 5. i love writing stories. 6. i wear mostly black but not purposely. 7. i have 8 pairs of bondage pants. 8. i like to drive without a purpose. 9. i have a drum set. 10. i have direction in life. 11. i need help. 12. i want to be in a band. 13. i'm a college junior 14. i went to a special ed high school 15. i'm on prozac, lithium, topomax and zyprexa - i stopped taking them 16. i'm agorophobic. 17. i get anxious and shy when having to talk to people. 18. i'm very loud and funny when i feel comfortable. 19. i live to go to concerts. 20. i have no trust left in my body. 21. i'm very defensive about my music. 22. death is a recurring thought. 23. i like vitamin water. 24. i'm diabetic. 25. i hate therapy 26. kelli goes to the same college as me (my best friend) 27. i'm strange. 28. i like to sleep. 29. i've been in a mental hospital. 30. i'm afraid of rejection. 31. i'm depressed most of the time. 32. i have no life. 33. i think boys are sexy. 34. i want a man that treats me well.. 35. i'm a fucked up loser. i hate you. 36. i'd rather be lonely than fucked over. 37. the wrong boys like me. 38. i always pretend i'm fine, when i'm not. 39. i've been abused, and i won't take it ever again. 40. i try to be nice but sometimes i just can't be. 41. people are scared of me. 42. i HATE feet. 43. i used to drink almost every day for a while, but i'm trying to stay away from it now. 44. i like to sit alone in the dark. 45. i'm angry. 46. i hate being lonely. but i like to be alone. 47. i want to have kids. 48. i thought i fell in love once, but it was a false feeling i created to make myself feel better.